backback and merry christmas!

yayyyyy back from chilly japan the land of the rising sun and good food and lotsa snow! haha. had a good holiday with many exciting happenings like meeting lee tsien loong at the ski resort we were at and inching with a huge humongous mass of pple into a tokyo train station (never complain abt the mrt being crowded again!) and skiing down exciting slopes :) pics will be up soon! haha. yeah anyway it was really funny cos kaihung was on the same tour as me with his whole extended family and he also brought stuff to mug but didnt haha. so i guess there is lots of catching up for both of us to do! anyway the whole tour was very good la and i ate so much i think i cant eat for a while (after the christmas feasting la) oh man im gonna die of explosioness alr! anyway hokkaido crabs are super nice! and super big! haha. and royce chocs rocks my socks woohoo! and i guess japan isnt as bad as i thought it would be, the guys are really super cool la... like they dress impeccably and almost all of them look really really good! haha. but i still wont rank it among my top few fav countries tho haha. anyway im just glad to be home cos i guess im a home-y person and this yr ive been travelling so much so being at home is very nice haha

anyway its christmas and i guess this yr christmas isnt as happy as it usually is for me. just doesnt feel like christmas without christmas service and everything, and i guess coming back on christmas eve evening kinda killed the mood oso la haha. and most of my friends are either in army or we have drifted or are too busy etc etc, and also the other thing i guess. but im in an optimistic mood now and i really wanna make the next yr start out right, esp with God, and there are alot of stuff in my mind i guess i should think through but like a friend (ex-friend) told me once, im the type who runs away from stuff that bother me and i guess tts true. all these things i dont really wanna think about but i know if i am to acheive contentment with where i am in life i do need to think them through la so i hope i will for once not be a lazy girl and actually do it! anyway this yr i realised tt i have become alot lazier and selfisher and tts really bad! and i guess its masked by my ability to forget bad stuff really easily so im usually qt happy and satisfied but there are things about myself im very unhappy with. do kinda feel that i have changed alot this yr, and not really for the better so i really hope i can change back! haha. this i really should try not to forget man tts y im blogging it down so ill remember to actually do it!

anyway, merry christmas to all and lets not forget the cross even as we look to the manger because christmas was just the start of His sacrifice

im not very happy about something right now and i really hope it gets settled! i hate being left in the dark about stuff i shouldnt be left in the dark about. roars!